All posts by Jessie Gutierrez

Misplaced Missive #8 – Either Or

After all you’ve been, and all you’ve done,
How can you take as contemporary gospel,
That you’re God’s chosen one?

Have you repressed our history?
I wish I could.
I’ve tried enough for a lifetime.
If God deems you worthy,
Then that’s a god I can’t abide. Continue reading Misplaced Missive #8 – Either Or

Misplaced Missive #114 – 1 Good Reason

Young and insecure,
Constantly searching for:
Validation, Confirmation
Of reciprocation
Of feelings better forgotten.
So besotted; so taken
I faithfully deny unhealthy devotions,
Set in motion to distract and subtract,
From thought-worthy worries and woes. Continue reading Misplaced Missive #114 – 1 Good Reason

Misplaced Missive #203 – All The Colors That You Shine

Set in between my black heart and your white lies,
Grey eyed wisdom is overshadowed by extremes,
But I need: Some guidance, some advice,
‘Cause I do not know what is right.
I turn away and you tell me to stay,
I stay put and hate myself for being weak,
I don’t know where to find the answers I seek. Continue reading Misplaced Missive #203 – All The Colors That You Shine

Moonlit Musing – Anxiety.

It’s three walls closing in around you and the only open exit is a cliff edge leading to a pit of spikes. But slowly. Creeping death as Metallica would have it. And it’s all the more tangible for being so slow, because you can see and feel and dread it coming, but there seems like no way to stop it without making everything exponentially worse.
So you freeze. Continue reading Moonlit Musing – Anxiety.

Album Share and Mood Update

I’ve been back in Maryland for a total of 12 days. And while I can see the pros of being home, the cons have been weighing heavy. I haven’t been posting in the chaos and my mood has been… lower than where I like it. Part of it is the depression that always shadows a birthday for me, but the other part seems to be guilt and regret. I’m trying to shake off the melancholy, but I wanted to warn you lovely readers that for the foreseeable future, I may get a little dark. Continue reading Album Share and Mood Update

Misplaced Missive #200 – Liquid Temptation

Liquid Temptation
Seen through the mirror
Disgust becomes clearer,
I only needed to see her
Stumble.
It humbles me to find,
The attraction of the vice,
Was purely in my mind.
A device I deployed,
Wholly to avoid,
The eating void
Of all that I lack.
The impact of seeing you
Stumbling under… Continue reading Misplaced Missive #200 – Liquid Temptation